UNEXPECTEDLY

omg!!! i can't believe the fact that i'm always losing something which is very important in my life. it's very unbelievable that that thing is the one. UNEXPECTEDLY it was my super outdated cellphone. omg i can't deny the fact that it is not the type of phone which most of us dream about. it is black and white. it is just used for texting and calling PERIOD. kaya ang laki ng pagtataka ko na pati yun ay mawala pa. grabe. dati kasi ninakawan ako sa may sm. kinuha yung wallet ko tapos iniwan yung cellphone. omg talaga kainis. i'm still sad because how can i contact other people now? how can i wake up early in the morning because of the alarm clock? there are a lot of important messages which i'm saving for a long period of time. kainis. you really do not know what you've got until you lose it. i will really miss my cellphone. :(

Time Flies :)

Time Really Flies!!! 

elementary....

high school...

college...

And then?....

I do not know yet... :)

Pseudo relationship

At this point in life I already have a lot of children. Hahahaha. You know what I act as if I was their mother. Each of them has different fathers. Their fathers are my crushes. My children(sort of), call me mother, madur, muds etc.  I got used to this being called one-MOTHER. Hahahaha. When they all me by my name, I told them not to except when we are in public and there are a lot of strangers. Hahaha. My children also have their wowa and wowo. (di ba complete family!) hahahaha. They also have their ninangs! What's cute is that they are really calling their ninangs "ninang" hahaha. And i call them "mare". Yes, that's how cute my family is. The thing that is missing is their daddy. Hahaha. Good thing,someone came in to our lives and became their daddy. Hahaha. Of course it's only a joke. (At first) I never imagined myself to be falling for this person. As in ha! :) Omg!! hahaha. I really believe that love happens when you least expect it.grrrrrrrr. Their daddy and I have a monthsary. We sort of celebrated it. Hahaha. I admit that I have really fallen for this guy. How can I fall if he did not gave me reasons. he's really a good guy after all. Many people know that. My fault is that I assumed and expected that something good will happen :) But then...... He already like someone. Someone who is really my opposite. Opposites-> PHYSICAllY AND EMOTIONALLY. Hahaha. This girl unfortunately, became my daughter in the past. But something happened. The thing that I don't like with this pseudo relationship is that omg!!!!! hahaha. he knows that I like him but he's still calling me "baby". Oh i forgot about this thing. Hahaha. i'm really trying my best not to get affected. :) hahahaha. Things will fall on their right places IN TIME :)

Lessons :)

I came to realize that each thing we have chosen to do is a risk. Taking risks is very hard because we do not know if we’ll be gaining something or unfortunately be losing something. The important thing in taking risks is that we learn. My recent experience really made me shatter into pieces. Made me cry. Made me to be really stressed. Made me to be really affected for the first time. I came to realize that everything happens for a reason and there is always a time for everything. Another thing is that it made me to be afraid to try new things. It really hurt me. I’m really trying my best to be happy again because that is the real me. It is really hard to be such a happy person because even if you are hurting inside, others still think that you are fine. I will try not to commit this same mistake in the future. :)

Meeting You Was My Favorite Accident

Accident? Everything happens for a reason. I think this saying is already a thousand years old. Hahaha. But, until now it really means a lot. Meeting all of the persons who became and who are still part of my life was never really an accident. Some of these persons made and are still making me happy. Some of them already saw me cry because of sadness or because of happiness. They already saw all sorts of emotions in me. Most of the time they saw me laughing like there's no more tomorrow. Eating drastically like I did not ate for centuries. Singing even if I'm out of tune. Dancing even if both my feet are left. Still there to listen even if my story I'm telling them was about the same topic. The worst thing I think they saw me was falling in love fast for the wrong person and letting go slow of the love I felt for that person. These are some the things I had done and still doing consciously, unconsciously and subconsciously. :) Let's face the fact that not all of the persons who are part of my life space are not always there to make me happy. They are also there to make me unhappy. OMG! hahaha. Drama again. I think I will not be LIZCEL if the word drama will never be part of my everyday life. Tama! Hahaha. 

I'm Afraid.

I'm not afraid to fall in love (REALLY?)


I'm just afraid to fall for something...


I thought was LOVE...

May pasok na?!

Eto nanaman. Bakit kapag umuuwi ako lagi akong nabibitin. Haist grabe ah. Nung tuesday ako umuwi tas thursday na ngayon. Ang bilis. Lagi kasi ako wala sa bahay. Ang lungkot pa. Paano naman laging wala si Mr. Sun. MR. SUN OH MR.SUN!!!! Magpakita ka naman. Please. Ang affected ko kasi pagdating sa panahon. Haaaaayyyy. Ang dami pang deadlines. All sorts of reports. Kailangan kayanin talaga. Last semester na to eh. Hindi ko nga alam kung excited ba talaga ako mag graduate o nalulungkot dahil matatapos na ang school year. Siguro mixed emotions talaga. :( :) hahaha.

Christmas Nanaman!!!

Eto nanaman ang isa sa mga pinakahihintay kong araw sa buong taon. Maraming pagakain syempre haha. Marami regalo. :) Sana. Hahaha. Yun nga pasko nanaman yes! pero as usual i'm taken pa rin. hahaha. Taken for granted haha. Ayun ulit nag renew ako ng membership sa SMP. Hahaha. Samahan Ng Malalamig ang Pasko. Oh well siguro it's not yet my time to really be on a romantic relationship. Hindi pa siguro ako mature. Hahaha. Well i have my beautiful and handsome friends who are always there for me. I have my pupils and students who are there to support me despite of my mistakes during facilitation. hahaha. And of course I have my loving family!!! :) I should be happy especially this time of year because of the blessings God has showered me. I know that God really knows what is good for me because He loves me. He will not let me to be sad again. Kaya because it's already Christmas, I should really,really,REALLY BE HAPPY. Ulit ulit lang eh noh? haha. Nakaunli kasi ako  eh. hahaha. I should try my best to move on. Syempre I also needed to let go of all the things that hurt me and made me lonely. Pero hindi ko na makakalimutan yun. That's life. You can't always be happy diba? Paano mong masasabi na happy ka kung hindi mo pa nararanasang maging malungkot? Hahaha. Tama na nga ang drama...:) HAPPY HOLIDAYS~! :)

Katuwaan :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfBNuncuHjM

Minsan

Minsan sa buhay natin, tayo ay nagkakamali. Sinasabi nga ng marami sa atin, Tao lang tayo nagkakamali rin. Tama nga. Tao tayo. Pero hindi ba may mga isip tayo? Isip para gamitin. Para tulungan tayo na pag-isipang mabuti kung ang gagawin ba natin ay tama o kaya mali. Sige lahat tayo may mga isip. Yun nga lang ma mga puso rin tayo. Ang isip at puso kung minsan ay nagtatalo. Minsan kasi iba yung mga bagay na ating iniisip sa ating nararamdaman. Kapag ba nagmahal ka, ano yung ginagamit mo yung isip mo o yung puso mo? Dati siguro puso talaga ang ginagamit. Pero sa mga panahon ngayon,dapat gamitin na rin ang isip. Haaaaay ang hirap. Parehas kaing malakas ang impluwensiya ng puso at isip sa atin. Araw-araw nating ginagamit ang dalawa. Pero alin nga ba sa kanila ang dapat gamitin? Ewan. Di ba sabi naman ng karamihan, walang mali kapag nagmamahal ka? Paano naman kapag nagmamahal ka nga, may ibang tao naman nasasaktan. Grabe talaga. Sa aking palagay dapat gamitin sila ng parehas. PUSO AT ISIP. Darating din ang panahon na mas maiintidihan ko rin. Sa tamang oras. Paano naman kasi lagi na lang ako nagmamahal tapos nasasaktan. Isssssssssshhhhhhhh. Paano ba kasi? 

Unang Banat

Sa wakas! Natapos din! Grabe ang hirap pala na gumawa nito. Ang daming echos at churva. hahaha. At least, matatawag na talaga akong isang blogger hahahaha. Masasabi ko dito yung mga bagay na hindi ko masabi sa iba. :)